Better in Time

[Better in Time]

Tired of it all. Living day by day. Faking smile after smile. One friend I thought I had is gone now. Nobody gets it. Nobody understands. Nobody helps.
Sick of pills, of faking smiles. Of seeing people and pretending to be something that I’m not, pretending to be someone that I’m not. It’s tiresome. I thought that by now I would get used to it and that it would just be second nature. “Fake it till you make it” sorta deal. I was wrong.
One day it’ll end. One day it’ll all be over. One day I won’t be to pretend. One day I won’t have to fake a smile.
Because one day I’ll end it all myself.

[Better in Time]

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[Better in Time]

[meredithmeri]

You can’t love someone’s mental illness away.

[Better in Time]

It always gets bad again…. Mental illnesses ruin lives… It ruined my life… The one actual friend I have probably thinks I hate him because I don’t even have the proper energy or motivation to hang out, or do something with him when he can… I hate feeling like this… When does it end…

[Better in Time]

Haven’t really been happy in a long long time… No laugh, no smile… Depression hits again… Back to the pills, I guess… What a way to live life…

[Better in Time]

You can’t just touch my soul and leave.

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[Better in Time]

[these-times-shall-pass]

cute relatable blog! =]

[Better in Time]

[Better in Time]

I wish I could just kill myself… Anything to make things better…

[Better in Time]

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that physical ache you get when you hear how to save a life or chasing cars